you can not imagine the immensity of the fuck i do not give right now.

Vogue Paris 2010

having a lazy day... while everyone was having one yesterday, i guess i'm a day behind. the weekends go by so quickly, and so does time, but i like having my sangria stained summer nights.

went to roosevelt room and branthouse with silva and melyssa, dancing slick with sweat, frosh kit stuffing, watching the rain, eating ice cream (i can't help but to go ape shit everytime i see an ice cream truck. fuck keeping composure, ICE CREAM!), coffee and cigarettes. and today, inception and salt.

honest to god, i have to record what i did somewhere because i can never remember amongst all the blur and the swirl of my doings.

god i hate how i feel so groggy and right now i want to eat all the junk food imaginable.

the catastrophe of my personality is beautiful, interesting and modern.

Vogue Paris April 2010

it's not baggage, it's life. it's who i am.

oh it hurts so good.

"better late than never, but never late is better"

At the tender age of 18, i made love, at the age of 21, I fucked...

Vogue Nippon August 2010

... now at 23, I just have sex.

i'm really sleepy today. gaga was AMAZING last night.

i feel like such a dirty hipster today...

... so i air dried my hair in the sun, put on my fake ray bans, wore my fedora and went bra-less, to roll around doing absolutely nothing. dinner with ingie soon. beach tomorrow, then lady gaga concert with silva.

i dyed my hair again yesterday. i would imagine that all the hair dye over the years is slowly seeping through my scalp and melting my brain.

fuck that noise.

Spanish Vogue 2010 January

i was filled with child like anticipation and sense of wonder. it felt good giggling and laughing, feeling the sunshine and the breeze. the time was perfect because the lines were short (we ended up going on about 8 rides, went on a few of them twice) and it was great watching the sunset. i love roller coasters and they make me want to go skydiving that much more.

watching the game right now. Spain isn't playing well at all. this upsets me. i'm not heading over to the beach until it's over though. i shall watch the bloody end with open eyes.

Pride activities tomorrow. that should be fun :)

I've decided that July will be a happy month, and i'll make it so. so far so good.

June is the cruellest month...

... this month has been a big disaster. i can't wait for it to be over. absolutely nothing is going right.

i should go off myself in the corner of shame. but instead i went for cake and beer with Sohnee at 3 in the afternoon yesterday, then went to see a movie (which i slept through the first quarter)

ugh, my trachea fucking hurts. i should quit. i will, once i finish this pack. i will not buy another. i keep getting nose bleeds too (which is odd, because i never get nosebleeds. gross.).

Korea lost today, and i bet England's gonna lose tomorrow. baarrggghhh. it's rainy, and it's absolutely perfect for reading poetry, while eating watermelon.

if rage was made of strawberries, i would be drinking a whole lot of smoothies right now. but i give up. i just want this month to be over.