bad ass shoes that i got while i was in Boston, but haven't had the balls to wear out for longer than an hour.

... steve madden's "dynemite"

madness

my days are long and hectic. i've been doing a lot, thinking a lot, writing a lot, trying to really listen. i've got a pink and orange notebook that i began to write in, trying not to edit my thoughts so much. and then there is everything else in my life that requires micromanaging and thinking structurally, but who am i to think that i could "manage" anything in life anyways? how do we really "manage" our lives, "manage" other people...? anyways, my schedule tomorrow is just in-sane. back to back from 9 am til 10 pm. woot. i'm looking forward to a little bit of time i have in the morning on Friday. i'm going to go thrifting! Yay for 50% off Fridays at Goodwill - i could never go because i always work, but what a rare treat. then off to work. but, yay the long weekend! and then back to the grind.

for women who are difficult to love.

You are a horse running alone and he tries to tame you compares you to an impossible highway to a burning house says you are blinding him that he could never leave you forget you want anything but you, you dizzy him, you are unbearable every woman before or after you is doused in your name you fill his mouth his teeth ache with memory of taste his body just a long shadow seeking yours but you are always too intense frightening in the way you want him unashamed and sacrificial he tells you that no man can live up to the one who lives in your head and you tried to change didn’t you? Closed your mouth more tried to be softer prettier less volatile, less awake but even when sleeping you could feel him travelling away from you in his dreams so what did you want to do love split his head open? You can’t make homes out of human beings someone should have already told you that and if he wants to leave then let him leave you are terrifying and strange and beautiful something not everyone knows how to love. - warsan shire