madness

my days are long and hectic. i've been doing a lot, thinking a lot, writing a lot, trying to really listen. i've got a pink and orange notebook that i began to write in, trying not to edit my thoughts so much. and then there is everything else in my life that requires micromanaging and thinking structurally, but who am i to think that i could "manage" anything in life anyways? how do we really "manage" our lives, "manage" other people...? anyways, my schedule tomorrow is just in-sane. back to back from 9 am til 10 pm. woot. i'm looking forward to a little bit of time i have in the morning on Friday. i'm going to go thrifting! Yay for 50% off Fridays at Goodwill - i could never go because i always work, but what a rare treat. then off to work. but, yay the long weekend! and then back to the grind.