i am so glad that i'll have all the details down.

i haven't worn my glasses or my contacts for two and a half years now. the world has too much ugliness and it is overstimulating. i don't want to see the leaves in the trees, because they will make me want to stop and stay there as long as it took for me to continue on my journey. i don't want to see my reflection in the stranger's eyes and the life that they carry in them before they look away on the subway train; i would rather look at their shoes to guess what kind of a person they might be. i don't want to see the next street over, because i would rather have to walk up to the street sign to be able to know for sure. i want the street lamps to look like lit candles, because i don't want to see all the cigarette buds and the little pieces of paper on the cement with all the cracks. but i'm still raw with love, raw with happiness, raw with vulnerability, raw with curiosity, raw with laughter, raw with love making, raw with rebellion, raw with anger, raw with uncertainty, raw with tears that overflow, raw with his skin on my skin. i had a great weekend. it was filled with much sunshine. walked down to st. george station after work, facing the sun. tutored, hurried back to meet my love at keele station. cuddled all the way to the rom, cuddled in the line, cuddled cuddled cuddled. busily tried to spend my rom bucks on food, saw all the cool dinosaurs with ingrid, ju, will et al., changed into ingrid's knicker shorts so that my butt had rattling sequins and danced at wrongbar - it was 'big primping' night. giggling in the streets: ingrid, julian, anubha, lauren, dayna, ola, eric and i. danced with eric when he got tipsy, got sweaty, hopped on the couches and danced some more. went back home for some sexy times. planned to get up at 10, but slepted in until 1. grabbed yummy brunch while i told eric that i was sad that i haven't spoken to sara in a long time, bought arizonas, went to the movies for the avengers, and then walked to get some korean food. more loving at home. went to see the avengers again in my bright yellow dress, bought ice caps and walked outside with my bare legs. more loving at home. nap time. more loving. then we got chicken nuggets, cheese burgers, a caramel sundae, french fries from mcdonald's and sat outside to eat. now i'm back on the west end... hoping to read, shower, watch a show and go to bed, but it's already midnight and i'm going to have to give up on a few of those.