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... the struggle with the whole concept of being in a relationship continues. My mind is so perversed in its notions of it, and it is hard to break my sadistic habits. My poor lover. I can't help but expect the worst and what saddens me the most, is that it is as if my heart is unconsciously stumbling in the the dark for reasons for me to run away. It has been so easy when I kept my distance and not cared; it's really frustrating to deal with this because none of it makes sense.
